I detached myself from negative behaviors and people. Doing this helps to build a better version of myself , heal, and recover. Refraining from old ways and habits that lead me to no where but keep me in the same old cycle of toxic unhealthy ways. I thought I had a pretty good handle of this. Little did I realize that their was still a small part of me that had care, , wanting to help.
Detaching myself from “friends” (acquaintances ) are much easier to go no contact. People who are close and have been close are more difficult as i have history, stories, experiences with them. I see helplessness and it’s my codependence kicking in. I feel nurture as the motherly part of me. I feel happiness envisioning what the end result may be. When I am in recovery and have not completely healed, my old ways creep up without realization. Now stressed about a situation that is not even mine. Choices I have no control over. Why did I go out of my way? Why do I care? Remember the healing and recovery is about Me. I’m doing everything possible for my well being, for my happiness, my soul, my heart, it’s not my problem, it’s your problem with what you do and say, the choices you make are all on you. It’s you who will suffer and continue a path of pain. It is not my problem. Now I have realized this , I can return and refocus more wiser and aware. This is my problem I am focusing on. Your problem is yours.